So that's the girls over the next few weeks hopefully you will get to know them pretty well. The photo is Baby. any questions just ask.
A blog by a veteran, father, and struggling fat git. I struggle with mental health binge eating and balancing 2 jobs and full time university.
Tuesday, 6 July 2021
chickens in the yard an introduction
So that's the girls over the next few weeks hopefully you will get to know them pretty well. The photo is Baby. any questions just ask.
Monday, 5 July 2021
Motorbike waiting time. Royal Enfield
Friday, 3 November 2017
A bit of a dip
Hello. It has been a while since i blogged and thungs have been going well until recently. I have had a major dip in mood and my stress anxiety and depression are back with avengance.
I am struggling to focus and keep motivated. Luckily i noticed my symptoms sooner this time and managed to get to the doctors. After a quick referral to psychological i started treatment yesterday. I am in a dark place and feel lower than in years.
While i have been here before this time i also have the knowlege that i have climbed out of this hole before. I will keep you informed and let you know how i am getting on.
Remember its ok to talk you can get through and things can get better.
Stat safe, Speak soon
Russ
Monday, 31 October 2016
Friday, 9 September 2016
A little more reflecting
Well today i have finally got round to starting to sort the thousands of photos from the round Britain trip. Looking through them brings back some amazing memories. Like when we played pirates in scappa flow and the time we disowned big al for being a turn coat. All great memories. I wish by some amazing fluke i had got a photo of the lightening strike (apparently known as devils scorn but i cant find a reference t confirm it). There were sunsets and sun rises that are burned into my soul and will never leave me. I have got some pretty cool photos and loads of great footage but its taking much longer to organise than i first thought it would.
As there is so much and i'm a nightmare on Facebook i thought i would set up a page with all my media type stuff could be posted. link is here
https://www.facebook.com/TheRussPollard/?ref=aymt_homepage_panel
If you want to then please follow it.
I am a changed person and for me it feels like its for the better some of the people around me may not think so but i refuse to become what i was before this experience. I felt like a shadow and i struggled with lots of what life threw at me. This challenge has made things much more simple and things are less of a worry. When you feel well life can throw you curve balls but with your feet firmly on the ground you just hit them back.
well I'v droned on enough today
stay safe, Speak soon
Russ
Wednesday, 7 September 2016
Back to uni
I really need to be getting back to uni i am starting to fall apart due to lack of direction. If i could i would just be down in falmouth sailing but with a family its just not doable that makes me sad. Until freya runs in telling me about her day. Then i just feel guilty about having my own wants. I am going to take her on an adventure on saturday but cant decide where to go. Mountains are always good but i have a yearning for the seaside. I cant really decide what adventure i can have at the seaside with her.
Some of you know i have a real dislike of horror films and horror in general. I dont see why people enjoy it but ho hum live and let live. Why do i mention this you wonder to yourself. Well its easy really i watched "stranger things" over the last week and despite my dislike of horror i loved it i think mainly due to the geeky stephen king references and the lovely scene of the boys on the railway track like "stand by me"
It was good and is worth a watch. I have been playing with all my footage and photos from my sailing adventure and am close to a paper edit so i can get the whole thing done.
I did a quick edit that you can find on my page somewhere but its just quick cut to some music.
Well im off for now
Stay safe, speak soon
Russ
Sunday, 14 August 2016
Food addiction
I am addicted to food. It makes me feel better while i am eating then worse as i finish. Due to the fact i feel bad i eat which makes me feel better. Its a crappy addiction as you have to eat you cant go cold Turkey over the next 2 months i am going to document my eating and drinking habbits while writing about it in this blog. It is really so i just have a record of things but hopefully will help me control my addiction.
Saturday, 30 July 2016
All over bar the shouting
After completing the challege of the last few months i feel i should reflect on what we achived.
We set out from falmouth and were face with a huge challenge right from the start when spirits engine gave way and saw us towed back to falmouth. After a strip down and semi perminant rebuild in falmouth spirit again made her way alomg the south coast of Britan to fail with a massive gear box failure.
After building relationships and being taken to heart the peope of the isle of wight will always hold a special place in our hearts. The mamouth leg round to newcastle was a thing of beauty the should have songs written about it that get sung in the halls of Valhalla. We crossed the pentland firth after great avice from locals that no chart or book could have given us. The Orkneys brought a glimps of how the world should be with community being at the heart of the islands. My faith in humanity was restored when the local fishing and diving community mobalised in the early hours of a sunday morning just incase we need help as sprits engine was again playing up. People stopped their lives in order to make sure we random weary strangers were safe.
We visited the westen isles and the hebrides and saw sunrises and sunsets on all coasts of the country. We ran fro. Storms and hid in an idelic loch where thousands of jelly fish sourronded the boat. We got caught in storms and struck by lightening. We saw dolphins and whales and killer octopus.
We visited random war graves and walked on beaches less trodden. We explored castles and woodland walked mountains and crossed streams. When the adventure was near someone went to find it. We spread the word about Turn 2 starboard and we made contacts and learnt tips and trick galour.
We did all this with a feeling of being part of something special. We did it with pride. We walked the walk and we talked the talk. We sailed for days stright to spend time in isolated locations. I have lived more in the last few months than at any time since i left the army. I owe thanks to the charity and bigger thanks to my amazing Michelle for giving me the chance to follow my dream.
At the start i was scared about how i would cope. About what would happen and about who i would be at the end of it. I was nervous about meeting people and not being liked. I was fearful of storms both physical and emotional.
I found new friends, a new family a new passion but more than that i found myself. I was there all the time just hiding in the corner of my eye. I have been happy , sad, board and exilirated. I have traveled a path that has led me to new place in my life. I'v become comfatable in my own skin.
Going back to the real world after this will not be easy. Thing will stay where you put them and the shop will be round the corner. I will have changed. I can already feel a need for adventure coursing through my veins.
Would i do anything differently? Well obviously there is one obvious thing that would need to happen next time. As we leave falmouth to travel around the country. Lets remember to turn to starboard and go the right way
Stay safe, Speak soon
Russ
Thursday, 21 July 2016
Day 9
A spirit update - approching the Isle of Wight. Making good progress i think they will be caught up in a about 36 hours
Its been a bag of mixed fortunes since we slipped from Falmouth with some lovely sailing and some motoring through rough seas. There have been highs and lows in the weather and in mood. I have learnt so much on my way round and feel i am really getting the hang of sailing. I am understanding the complexities of setting sails for wind and helming under pressure. Tomorrow will tell as we will hopefully catch the wind and be well on the way to newcastle.
Day 8 go spirit go
Spirit update - fixed and on her way
Our update. We are going to shoot for ramsgate over the next few days while spirit catches up she is leaving with the tide today.
On Quivira we are a little gutted we wont be heading to the Azores. I think we were really talking Mike around to the idea.
Day 7
Spirit update - still poorly sick waiting for parts
Our update we have arrived in Brighton and are enjoying the weather. Its lovely and sunny we are in a georgous marina and i feel like as a crew we are really coming together. Yanto has decided to return to spirit as she will be setting off soon. I sort of want to go but really dont want to leave mike short handed if we press on.
There is a laundrey here so i can wash my pants and socks which is pretty handy as if it were any longer i am pretty sure the crew might keel haul me.
I am starting to feel like spirit might never set off.
Day 6 The Azores
Well lets say Spirit is not feeling great. She is a bit more poorly than we first thought. She need a bit of TLC and will be catching up soon.
The crew of Quivira have decided to sail to the Azores. Well all apart from Mike whos boat it is but its a work in progress. Maybe we can change course overnight without him noticing.
Its has been decided we will press on and spirit will catch us up in the next couple of days. I only have a couple of bits in my bag as i though it was only overnight but will be fine. I can always turn my pants inside out if it get that bad.
